A grand gesture

When I decide to make some monumental change, like vowing to discard all things negative in my life, I want to make some grand gesture of it to mark a new chapter of my life, to experience that instant feeling of liberation and the optimism of a fresh, new beginning. And then afterwards I’d get ice cream or something.

It’s hard, though, knowing what you should do because it’s not necessarily something you want to do. I hate when there’s that emotional and intellectual disconnect, so my reluctance is making me wait a bit before I do anything grand and big, though I’m not quite sure what I’m waiting for.