It's not me, it's you
In spite of these little recent discoveries that became progressively negative, and that have momentarily hurt my feelings, I’m feeling pretty good. It was for the best, really, these unearthings. Hearing the responses from my cousin and friends, people who can look at this more objectively, has enabled me to finally grasp this state of understanding and shed these feelings of inadequacy.
Finally, closure and full apprehension. Good riddance.